Have you ever wondered where "love" comes from? I KNOW it's a gift from God........he designed us as loving beings; capable of feeling an infinite amount of love! But, where in us is it "made"? We always refer to our hearts as our "love" center; the place we hold everything and everyone we cherish. From macaroni, fried chicken, our first pets, our favorite movie, the best book we ever read to all the special people in our lives, we say they hold a special place in our hearts! So, is that where our love is made?
I wonder this because I have an over abundance of love! When you love someone, you give away your love to them and they give you theirs in return (hopefully). But what happens when you love someone and they die? You don't stop loving them! You keep creating love with every memory, every mention of their name, every photograph looked at. And this love keeps growing and building up with nowhere to go!
So, what do you do with that love that's still being made for that person? The first thought that comes to mind is to give it to the other people you love right? But it isn't their love.......it was made for someone else, and it won't fit anyone else! You don't want to store it up because it was made to give away! But how do you do it? How do you take this perfect gift created in yourself and by design to only fit one other person like a piece of a jigsaw puzzle and give it away?
This is what I want the answer to! I don't want to stop it, I just want to know what to do with this overflow of love! For me lately, as a creative person, it is coming out in my writing and photography and other creative vessels. Is that what I'm supposed to be doing with it? It feels different than giving it to the person it was created for. My writing and photography can't give me love back! So is it a waste to give away bits of my love, pieces of a perfectly designed jigsaw puzzle to something it wasn't designed for?
If I do give it away in these little fragments, will I eventually run out? Will my "love maker" quit making love to give away with no return? That's a scary thought! Will it morph itself into love for someone else; and if so, does that change it's value any........like a regifted Christmas present? If I ever fall in love again, will it be an equivalent love? A better love? Will I always compare it to a love I've been making for over 15 years? Will it interfere with my future like that? Surely a love so true wouldn't do that right?!?
So, back to my earlier question.........what do I do with all this love I've been storing up? If only I could figure a way to package it up and make it valuable to others! To reshape the puzzle piece that was made for someone else and shape it to fit another person! To find someone who is worthy of receiving and appreciative of receiving a love that has been overflowing in my life now for 17 months.
Well, there you have it folks............the question I have been pondering lately! Anyone who has an answer for me, feel free to share! I guess that's all for now........................so, until next time, love and blessings to all......................DONNA!